I AM LEARNING TO TRUST MY MEMORY :)

I've spent a lifetime second guessing the answer to everything and think it to death.  One of my daughters recently told me to listen to my 'memory' and allow it to TELL me :)
Now when I log onto a website, for example, and it asks for a password and since I didn't think years ago to use the same password all the time and now have over 30 passwords I'm supposed to remember....NOT LIKELY.....but I've begun to hear it  lately.   It's a tiny, fleeting thought and I go with it.......and it's always right.  Who woulda thunk!

So here's the REAL DEAL with photography

10 hours of driving, hauling horses and living quarters and food for horses and self and also hauling water.  Having a flat tire on a stretch of dark, one lane potholed rocky road,  jackknife the trailer to get the spare out, unload all the horses in the windy, strange, black of night... change it....reload anxious, exhausted horses, arrive just before midnight.  Riding horse 9 hours a day, covering many, many miles across the desert, eating dirt sandwiches with a little meat and cheese, running out of water before the day is over, working cattle horseback as I do my photography....my camera hanging around my neck or tucked under my left arm....leaving bruises on my chin and my ribs after 4 days of  gathering and sorting errant cattle out of creek bottoms, bogs, and gullies, getting sparse meals and sparser sleep, loading back up and driving 10 hours home.  Cleaning the desert out of my camera equipment, uploading a few thousand photos to my computer.  Backing up a few thousand photos.  Editing a few thousand photos.  Uploading MANY beautiful images to my photography website.  Cost = $ THOUSANDS for me.  Cost= $245.00 for a 16x20 metal print to hang on your wall.  An image that is the REAL DEAL ...not some made up, fantacized painting :)  .... Don't get made you artists out there!  JUST SAYIN' .............   AND all of my art is created from my original photography.

it's STILL October and I'm Back :)

So, I just read a blog post on depression of a non medicated person with ADHD.   Laughed hard!!!!

I'm Back and I'm Gonna Try and Do Better

The Weird Thing is I really want to blog and I love to write.  The trouble is I also have ADHD and I'm not in control of what my mind wants to do.  I'll think about how fun it will be to sit down and blog for a spell and before I know it I'm outside doing ranch work, riding a horse, cleaning chicken houses, or some other such thing.  And it can be three days before I remember I was going to blog.

So I'm not really responsible and... I'm stickin' to that.

Now with that out of the way, I'm going to bed.  I only got 4 hours sleep last night due to lots of fun hours editing and uploading photography from Hot Creek Ranch in Nevada, and tomorrow I'm going to a roping clinic up in Rescue so I REALLY need some sleep.....otherwise I might fall asleep on ol' Coop and fall off my 'chair' right there in the clinic.

Good Night and it's Great to be back!!!

I'm going to live...

I'd post pictures to prove it but you may never come back to read my blog again.
I tripped and fell onto a log 9 days ago and I've just begun to believe my leg won't fall off.  Nasty gouges and bruises all over my shin and calf muscle and some infection that has  given up the fight with my antibiotics and Vetricyn spray :)  Yes, if it works for horses it will work for me.
So altho my leg looks like a beautiful lake trout, the pain subsides daily, the throbbing has gone by the way side leaving only the occasional shooting pain in areas where healing is taking place.
Next time I get hurt I hope I can remember how much I always suffer the week following an injury, and ask for help!  X-rays, painkillers, bandages, antibiotics, splints, neck braces.....they make them for a reason!

How could I be so dumb.......

Well, I have a latex allergy.  I know this.  I avoid latex bandages, gloves, don't chew gum because I have a reaction to it just like latex (rubber in gum???), don't wear my wonderful favorite summer thongs (shoe kind :), and won't wear watches with rubber straps.
I've been having a reaction for over a month now......just about the time I quit wearing my boots and began wearing my beloved, expensive, and fantastically comfortable Earth sandals.  With the RUBBER footbeds....Duh!!!!!

Everyone reacts differently to things.  Lucky me, my face breaks out like a teeny bopper.........and I'm 63 yrs old!!!!!  And NOW I have to give away 8 pair of the most wonderful Keen, Earth, and Chaco sandals.  I pride myself in my collection :(

But I'm willing to give it up and resort to leather sandals if my reaction will go away.  Still.....I'm bummed!

Good thing I have daughters and granddaughters that have been just wishing they could get their cute little feet into those sandals. 

I shant give up on blogging.....

Wow, a month has gone by.  And I love to write!
I spent a week in Texas as a jeweler for Premier Designs Jewelry.  I love it!
I spent a week with daughter and grandkids having soooo much fun.  They came to the ranch and we boated and rode horses and bbqed and laughed and talked and hugged and loved being together.  It was wonderful.  They went home two days ago and I'm missing them a lot.
I fell and smashed my leg pretty good on a tree trunk/limb but looking at the bright side I'm sooo glad I didn't break my leg.  It will be good as  new in a couple of weeks.
I'm loving my photography as much as ever and excited about my future with it.
We're looking forward to the upcoming rodeo and my photgraphy there and seeing old friends.
Cooper's eye is a little better but he's likely blind for good in it now.  Might have it removed one day before too long.  I want him comfortable.
I'm thankful for my Father in Heaven and my Savior Jesus Christ.  And the Holy Ghost.....what a wonderful gift.  I love the gospel of Jesus Christ and the plan of salvation.  I love my family!
I'm very blessed in this life and I only hope I don't dissapoint them too much with my imperfections.
Good night and I'll try to write more often....and post some of those fun vacation photos.